No Counseling Today

SO HERE WE ARE AGAIN ON LOVELY OLE TUESDAY. TODAY I WOKE UP FEELING PRETTY CRAPPY. I HAD CRAMPS ALL DAY AND REALLY JUST FELT DRAINED. IT WAS RAINY OUTSIDE AND I WASNT RESTED EVEN THOUGH I HAD SLEPT FOR A GOOD 8 HOURS THE NIGHT BEFORE. I WAS FRANTIC WHILE I WAS GETTING READY. MY CAT,ICHI, PEED ON THE JEANS I WAS GOING TO WEAR. KIND OF A SET BACK, BUT NOT REALLY. I HAD A COUPLE OTHER PAIRS THAT WERE CLEAN. I GOT DRESSED AND AS I WENT TO LEAVE THE HOUSE I NOTICED I COULD NOT FIND MY KEYS. I SEARCHED HIGH AND LOW AND EVEN THOUGHT FOR A MINUTE THAT I MIGHT BE LATE TO WORK FOR ONCE. HOWEVER, WITH LITTLE EFFORT I FOUND MY KEY SITTING ON TOP OF MY COMPUTER PRINTER AND OFF TO WORK I WENT. I GOT TO WORK ON TIME AND DID MY NORMAL DAILY ROUTINE AND EVEN THOUGH I WAS TRYING TO FOCUS ON MY WORK I WAS IN PAIN. A LITTLE WHILE LATER MY BOSS LET ME GO HOME. I CAME HOME, WATCHED A COUPLE TV SHOWS WHILE LAYING IN MY BED AND FELL ASLEEP AT LIKE 1 OCLOCK. I SLEPT UNTIL LIKE 4 OCLOCK OR SO. WHEN I WOKE UP I FELT MUCH BETTER. I AM STILL IN PAIN BUT I DONT FEEL DRAINED ANYMORE. WELL BECAUSE OF THE PAIN AND THE HORRIBLE WEATHER--WE HAD A TORNADO WARNING FOR 6 HOURS--I DECIDED THAT I WASNT GOING TO COUNSELING TODAY. I JUST DID NOT FEEL UP TO IT. I'LL PROLLY REGRET IT FOR THE NEXT WEEK BECAUSE I LOVE HAVING A RELEASE. HOWEVER, NEXT WEEK I WILL HAVE ALL THE MORE TO TALK ABOUT. I HAD A MEMORY THAT I WAS GOING TO SHARE WITH MY COUNSELOR TODAY...I REALLY WANT TO TELL HER ABOUT IT. IT IS ONE OF THE MEMORIES THAT I AM ASHAMED OF. MAYBE I SHALL SHARE IT LATER WITH ALL OF U, BUT IM DEFINITELY NOT PREPARED TO DO SO NOW. ANYWAYS, ITS BEDTIME SO ILL WRITE AGAIN SOON.

XOXOX
JESS